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I never had any of these issues when I was here way back in the past :grump:

Probably never noticed them.

Anyway, 2015, granted it's halfway through the fifth month of 2015 but that's not my point. I've been absent for what is easily approaching if not surpassing 2 years. I can't tell you where I've changed in that time, I only know that I... Have changed. I found some videos of myself on my old laptop yesterday whilst trying to repair it, which utterly failed by the way, and the figure I'm watching is like a different person. Not that I feel alienated from my past self, not that I feel disassociative of my past self, I just feel unable to relate to the frame of mind I must have been in and unable to relate to the person I must have been.

That said, I feel I'm a happier person now. I had a catastrophic few days after I came back from a business trip to Quebec last week, had a couple of breakdowns and eventually started seeing another therapist for it. To cut a long story short, about 10 months ago a friend of mine pointed out that some detail of my past I was sharing with him sounded out of place, that what happened in said time was wrong and I seem to be remembering it as though it were okay. Cryptic, perhaps, but basically over the following 10 months I apparently began to show more and more signs as I grew more and more curious and inquisitive with regards to my past during highschool. My therapists, some of my family, and a rather sizeable portion of my friends all seem to believe I suffered trauma in school that I've managed to block out somehow. Which is convenient, as there is a two year block of school that I can't remember at all, not one memory shines from it. It's a strange kind of can't remember, like a void of just nothing so far as memories and feelings are concerned.

Either way, I'm a happier person now than I was back when I first started on dA. Every bad episode I have lasts maybe a day, after a while I got suspicious this was some kind of weird depression but whatever, so long as I feel happy in myself I'm not going to start reasoning that it's for any reason other than I am finally, actually, content.

Not been around for that long that to be honest I don't recognise 90% of the people in any of the chatrooms I used to frequent, most of the friends I had over my busy period in here have all faded into seemingly nothing now, they're either inactive, or their account has been deleted. Some still hang, but I don't really have much contact.

And here I am, after finishing at 7:30PM and starting tomorrow at 6AM for work as an off-architect / draughtsman for an engineering company. I got cats early last year, after years of asking, so one of them is clawing the living shit out of me as I write this as she purrs :stare: I'm soon to move out of home, I'm still in the middle ish stages of driving lessons, I'm returning to college with work funding to further my 3D AutoCAD skills using the biggest baddest Bastard of a program I've ever come across (Except Photoshop, be still my raging heart); Revit.

Gunna be fun.

I'm probably not going to return to the active state I used to be at on dA, but I will try, maybe one day work will hire a second draughtsman as currently my workload allows for 65+ hours overtime per month, something like 3+ hours per day on average after a 9 hour working day. But I enjoy it, so what the hell.

Anyway, peace! One day I'll make another of these updates, but right now I'm waiting for this blasted $3,600 laptop I had built to arrive, and the second book in Karin Lowachee's Warchild Series; Burndive. Seriously, dig those books. :stare:

Also, Fury happened in my absence. That film has conquered the topspot on my favourite films list by a LONG shot. I cannot stop watching it.

OH ALSO STAR WARS BATTLEFRONT 3
  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: This vicious cat purr, and some Avicii
  • Reading: Warchild, Karin Lowachee
  • Watching: FURY ... and The Last Ship lately
  • Playing: World of Tanks, War Thunder, Destiny, list is long
  • Eating: McVities Biscuits, I mean c'mon
  • Drinking: Milk. What? What were you expecting? It's me
I never had any of these issues when I was here way back in the past :grump:

Probably never noticed them.

Anyway, 2015, granted it's halfway through the fifth month of 2015 but that's not my point. I've been absent for what is easily approaching if not surpassing 2 years. I can't tell you where I've changed in that time, I only know that I... Have changed. I found some videos of myself on my old laptop yesterday whilst trying to repair it, which utterly failed by the way, and the figure I'm watching is like a different person. Not that I feel alienated from my past self, not that I feel disassociative of my past self, I just feel unable to relate to the frame of mind I must have been in and unable to relate to the person I must have been.

That said, I feel I'm a happier person now. I had a catastrophic few days after I came back from a business trip to Quebec last week, had a couple of breakdowns and eventually started seeing another therapist for it. To cut a long story short, about 10 months ago a friend of mine pointed out that some detail of my past I was sharing with him sounded out of place, that what happened in said time was wrong and I seem to be remembering it as though it were okay. Cryptic, perhaps, but basically over the following 10 months I apparently began to show more and more signs as I grew more and more curious and inquisitive with regards to my past during highschool. My therapists, some of my family, and a rather sizeable portion of my friends all seem to believe I suffered trauma in school that I've managed to block out somehow. Which is convenient, as there is a two year block of school that I can't remember at all, not one memory shines from it. It's a strange kind of can't remember, like a void of just nothing so far as memories and feelings are concerned.

Either way, I'm a happier person now than I was back when I first started on dA. Every bad episode I have lasts maybe a day, after a while I got suspicious this was some kind of weird depression but whatever, so long as I feel happy in myself I'm not going to start reasoning that it's for any reason other than I am finally, actually, content.

Not been around for that long that to be honest I don't recognise 90% of the people in any of the chatrooms I used to frequent, most of the friends I had over my busy period in here have all faded into seemingly nothing now, they're either inactive, or their account has been deleted. Some still hang, but I don't really have much contact.

And here I am, after finishing at 7:30PM and starting tomorrow at 6AM for work as an off-architect / draughtsman for an engineering company. I got cats early last year, after years of asking, so one of them is clawing the living shit out of me as I write this as she purrs :stare: I'm soon to move out of home, I'm still in the middle ish stages of driving lessons, I'm returning to college with work funding to further my 3D AutoCAD skills using the biggest baddest Bastard of a program I've ever come across (Except Photoshop, be still my raging heart); Revit.

Gunna be fun.

I'm probably not going to return to the active state I used to be at on dA, but I will try, maybe one day work will hire a second draughtsman as currently my workload allows for 65+ hours overtime per month, something like 3+ hours per day on average after a 9 hour working day. But I enjoy it, so what the hell.

Anyway, peace! One day I'll make another of these updates, but right now I'm waiting for this blasted $3,600 laptop I had built to arrive, and the second book in Karin Lowachee's Warchild Series; Burndive. Seriously, dig those books. :stare:

Also, Fury happened in my absence. That film has conquered the topspot on my favourite films list by a LONG shot. I cannot stop watching it.

OH ALSO STAR WARS BATTLEFRONT 3
  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: This vicious cat purr, and some Avicii
  • Reading: Warchild, Karin Lowachee
  • Watching: FURY ... and The Last Ship lately
  • Playing: World of Tanks, War Thunder, Destiny, list is long
  • Eating: McVities Biscuits, I mean c'mon
  • Drinking: Milk. What? What were you expecting? It's me

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Well I haven't updated this in a while,

Lotta things have changed, I don't really do journals anymore because I don't REALLY have the necessary time to allocate, either work or Halo/Destiny/Darkest Dungeon make certain of that.

That said I do still hover around dA.

For those that knew me before this Bio update, I'm now a Draughtsman / Off-Architect for a Garage Equipment company. Designing the buildings the equipment goes into, then making sure everything fits according to British regulations and law. More interesting than it sounds, I promise. Been there almost a year (Being today 26th March 2015).

Any other changes? Well I've been through a rather unsuccessful relationship, or two, or three, honestly I can't remember that well anymore. I've recently had to start wearing glasses when in front of a computer screen because I got metal in one eye that left behind substantial rust and my other eye apparently has an astigmatism. I've had more therapy than I can accurately remember for my anxiety, and in the end they just gave me my new medication and we more or less called it a day #NHS Shit works like cash money tho so I'm fixed and ready to get out on the town more often. Hopefully not getting kicked out of the local landmark shopping centre when I do, but hey-ho.

Anyway yeah, if you've managed this far without alcohol or taking such a lengthy break you forgot to come back and read the rest, call me Wilky. Everybody else does, and I kinda gave up trying to get them to call me anything else. I'm just a... Vaguely ordinary homo living off in the Middle East of England. Not Bradford, East Yorkshire.

So YEAH :la:
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JoeHoganArt Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2015
Thanks so much for watching me! :)
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Rosen-weiss Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2014  Student Interface Designer
neighhh lmao
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Zanirr Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
ayy lmao
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I found this little hilarious video while watching Adult Swim on YouTube about birthdays and thought I'd share it with you! I hope your birthday is awesome~!!! :la::squee::happybounce: www.youtube.com/watch?v=RwyKQ_…
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RichWalker Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2014   Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch Jack, take care mate -rich :)
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Wilky95 Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2014
No worries! I love your latest works, it was too good to pass up a +Watch :D
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Cinderp Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014
oh ye fuckin mosher like il smash u up proper like fokn wanker o innit
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Zanirr Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
<3
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Wilky95 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2013
Muh milkshake :la:
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